I do not know what to do PLEASE help me?

so this man is with your kids on his own ? i feel bad for you is there any way you can get your kids back? are you trying to? how old are they? it sounds funny your mom was different with you and the others. i figured because you were the oldest sometimes relationships are different when you are the oldest.i worry to some extent about the same thing happening to your kids. i find it hard to believe no one believed you way back. thing is your not a 12 year old keep that in mind. i guess i would try and get myself together and protect my kids. at least make a relationship with them so when you get a chance your not a stranger and if something going on with them you will know but try and get a grip and get them back . i know with your problems it would be hard and maybe not going to happen . so try and be a part of their life best you can.